Unpublished Work © March 16, 2014 Shanell
A heart never will be whole again.
I gave it all to you,
Just to see it thrown to the ground,
Crushed in the dirt
A beautiful heart that once was whole.
Is broken now and forever more.
A Shiny white knight,
You will never be.
You broke that fairy tale quick as hell.
Broken dreams and broken hearts,
They have so much in common you see,
Once they break,
The scars, they never heal.
Some say time heals all pain,
But I guess they’ve never met you,
Now have they?
You say you don’t know why,
You did the things you did.
You say you wanted out,
But now you want back in.
Oh honey, don’t you know,
God didn’t give my heart
Any swinging doors.
I just don’t want you anymore.
You had twenty chances,
Probably even more.
Hope you’re happy now,
Hope you’re livin’ your dream.
This heart isn’t yours,
It’s finally free.
Holding onto Figments
Dreaming of you
Crystal eyes so blue
Freckles spotting
Dimples frolicking
As we lived-
Laughed-
Loved-
Memory collapse
Domino relapse
One problem-
Two problem
Who to blame,
So much shame
Guilt is built
Seeps into foundation
Creates devastation
Love swept away
Like a ship from its bay
Tried to weather the storm
But the damage was born
Nowhere to harbor,
Why even bother?
The nightmare shifts
Stirring from the crypts
The love we had before
Appears in full adore
Reaching out to grasp
My mind stalls the clasp
Waking up screaming
What is the meaning?
Seeing you
Those eyes so blue
Frolicking dimples
And spotted freckles
You vanished from my life
Now I lay here in torment
To only lament
And try to grasp
To clasp
The figments of our love-
That was my life.
I wanted to be your angel
Your princess your own
image of perfection
But how I tried
You never liked me – your
own form of deflection
Bending me to your will
I would have done anything
to be perfect for you
But nothings perfect
You above all others
should know it’s true
~Chrystal
Written on
March 12, 2006