Time has presented a twist,
Before me again,
Yet I will not give in,
Since yielding is not in my vein.
I know how to start anew,
I know how to win the game,
I know how to inspire,
I know how to reach the aim!
Oh God! Be with me ever!
Please do me this little favour!
I had built a wall up,
up around my heart.
I had protected my heart,
until you showed up
in my life.
I let my guard down,
exposing my wall to you.
I fell hard and
I fell fast for you.
Instead of taking care
of my heart and wall,
you decided to do otherwise.
You broke my wall down,
causing my heart to
be crushed and broken.
I gave you access
to my heart
and you broke me.
Whispers of the wind
Papers on my bed
Three hours of my sleep
Lonely words are said
The night is young
I hold my tongue
From telling the truth
Hiding it from you
You always have seen me through
You ask me to go with you
Somewhere I can smile
Away from their sight
It has been a long hard week
Take me now and be real quick
I want to go out and kill this night
I have to get out and smile tonight
Even if we see that menace
I know I'm happy with this
As long as you're with me
All things are like a dream
I'm smiling wide again
Fogetting what happened
I know this is a bit strange
I ask you don't go away
Nobody asks me if I am fine
My friends never bother to ask me that
Nobody like you make me smile wide
They don't know if I fake smiles or I am sad
The night is dying
I can't help laughing
Whenever you're here with me
I forget all those bad things
Took a deep breath in the mirror
You didn't like it when I wore these shoes
But I do
Turn the lock and put my headphones on
You always said you didn't get this song
But I do
I do
Walked in expecting you'd be late
But you got here early and you'd stand and wave
I walked to you
Pulled the chair and helped me in
And you don't know how nice that is
But I do
And you throw your head back laughing
like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny
'cause she never did
And I've been spending the last eight months
thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
But on a Friday, in a bakery
I watched it begin again
I said I never met someone who could
understand these LG records as me
But you do
We tell stories and you don't know why
I'm coming off a little shy
But I do
But you show your killer smile
with the perfect teeth
I think it's new that you say I'm sorry
'cause she never did
And I've been spending this year's eight months
But in August, when our eyes met
I let it begin again
And we walked down the block to the cab
I almost brought her up
But you stopped to talk
About the colors that you dyed your hair once
Every single nighttime
I wanna talk about her
But for the first time
What's past is past
'Cause you held me in your arms
like a little kid
I think it's strange that you say I'm priceless
'cause she never did
And I've been spending the first eight months
Thinking all love ever does is fail and mourn and slay
But in October when we held close
I had it begin again
But on a Friday, in a bakery
I watched begin again
Only two hours from now
The last month would start
I am filled with doubts
And memories from my heart
The town's getting colder
I'm even having cough
All I can do is shiver
Turns out I'm not that tough
It's December again
Oh, I could smell your scent
I recall the last time I saw you
It was just like this, cold and so blue
You said you'd never love him again
But here you were complaining the next day
You told me he broke your heart again
Yet you ran to him smilingly today
I guess everything was my fault
That everything fell down
I didn't want to deal with salt
So I wrote that letter with sob
I'm sorry for what I did
For the feeling that I hid
For your resentment that I fed
For the bitterness that you felt
It's been so long since we spoke
I thought you forgave me in February
But how come you are still cold
For the third time, please accept my apology
I had given up trying
Not wanting the pain
I have evils within
Many you have slain
You understand not
How hard it is for me
To put down my walls
To let my heart fly free
Yet I am trying, for you
My walls are going down
A heart I ne’er knew was there
A heart you may have found
I give it to you
With all my love and trust
Please be careful, I beg of you
My heart cannot survive another bust
~Chrystal
Written on
November 8, 2001