Paralyzing

I don't really know what I've come here to say.

I've just been feeling alone.

Alone in my internal struggle.

Battling these demons has been the hardest.

I know that we really aren't supposed to battle them,

we are supposed to learn how to dance with them.

I don't know how to do that.

They make their appearance and I just want them to go away.

I wish they didn't exist,

I didn't ask for them the reside within me,

I didn't ask for the traumas that I have experienced.

It's unfair.

Life is nothing but unfair.

But still, I try not to fall into the negativity,

the negativity of thinking that there is nothing good in the world,

the negativity of thinking that there is no way out of how I am feeling,

because this I know is not true, but

sometimes I just feel stuck.

Stuck within myself.

Not progressing,

only regressing.

That in and of itself is paralyzing.

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