they call it a disease
not a moral failing (anymore);
and to be sure
i'm more than happy to admit
that it's not my fault
by no fault of mine.
but put me out of my misery
kill the body and
the self-consciousness will follow;
just don't let me languish
like this, like the others
to wallow in this mire of a life
this sad world, this miserable existence;
i want more.