Words Are My Self Destruction

The words will be my self destruction
Destroying myself and my life as I know it
All in one big explosion
But it may not end with a big bang
It maybe just a trickle of blood that drips when it gets to the end

I guess life hasn't overly decided what it wants from me yet
Nor has it decided the ending that it will take
But it seems to have chosen for me to live this life alone
Seem as if I have to put in the effort in talking to people
It seems that I would rather live effortless and keeping my mouth shut
Why bother talking, when it's I who have to come to you

At times I would rather just sew my lips shut
Sew them shut to keep them closed forever
No words shall flow from these lips
As I continue my desent into perhaps madness

The words will be my self destruction
Destroying myself and my life as I know it
All in one big explosion
But it may not end with a big bang
It maybe just a trickle of blood that drips when it gets to the end

Words that will make people both nervous and concerned
As if I'm speaking out of things that I maybe thinking or possibly even doing
But it is certainly words that I am feeling
For this human race, I have given up on the race for these humans
I have not found any reason to compete, as none are worthy of that effort

My words will be my self destruction
The reason why people have chosen no longer to communicate with me
Whose fault will that be ?
When it's all said and done, it will certainly not be mine
They had the chance
They had the opportunity
They chose to ignore me
So I have chosen to ignore them

Ken

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lyrycsyntyme's picture

This is a good piece of

This is a good piece of writing - a sort of bitter cement paved out into your foggy future. Forgive me, but while I can certainly relate to your frustrations and potential demise (for which, I hope against), allow me to say that perhaps you set the bar too high. We're all fallable, at least on some level. It's good to have standards, but remember room for forgiveness, and find people who will have that same forgiveness for you - whether you're actually wrong or not. Perception rules so much of our existence.

kensquires's picture

I don't see it leading to my

I don't see it leading to my actual physical demise, maybe mental where I give up on it or walk away from it... So no need to worry about that


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Stephen's picture

I know the feeling

Stephen