Praying For The Pain To Go Away

Think I'm addicted to looking for love

Feeling that I need someone in my life so I can feel complete

But I don't even love myself

Nor do I even know what I would want in a partner

One minute it's one thing like acceptance and someone who understands me

The next minute I just want someone by my side

 

I feel pain when I think about love

Don't think it would be a healthy choice for my life right now

 

I'm struggling to figure out what I really do want

I'm struggling to figure out what I really do want

 

I'm praying for the pain to go away

I'm praying for the pain to go away

 

Wish I knew what I really wanted but I feel like my thoughts are spinning like a washing machine

Not sure if it's trying to dry them out to make more sense or just trying to be that much more confusing

Hoping that one day I wake up and this will be all sorted out.

I don't know what to make of anything

As I pursue the search of trying to find love

But my mind gets boggled and confused more than it already is

I don't know what I want

At times I feel like I don't know who I am

 

I sit and run my hand through my hair

In hopes of that giving me some sort of realization of who I am

Helping me to think

Helping me to figure things out

 

But it doesn't

At the end of the day I'm more confused than ever

 

I'm struggling to figure out what I really do want

I'm struggling to figure out what I really do want

 

I'm praying for the pain to go away

I'm praying for the pain to go away

 

Ken

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