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I'm struggling to figure out

Where do I belong in society?

I've never had a woman by my side who didn't need me financially

I need to fix this, this needs to stop

It's been reoccurring and I don't know the reason why 

I'm struggling to figure out

Where do I belong in society?

What is it like to have a ride or die?

This is a glaring problem with my bleeding heart

I'll worry about her before I think about myself 

in hopes of she won't judge me 

for my temporary struggles with mental health

I lay in bed awake thinking deeply

As I'm struggling to figure out

Where do I belong in society?

I refuse to sugar coat my words

So I'm uncomfortable to be around

If I said it, I meant it, it's that simple

At my best I'm my family's head of the table 

At my worst, left alone because Joey's unstable 

I'm now questioning if it's even capable 

To find the truth, the truth in this world

This world of oversensitive feelings and political correctness

I'm George Carlin in a room of Martha Stewart's

I'm struggling to figure out

Where do I belong in society?

You've heard the saying don't hate the player, hate the game, right?

Ask around, I'm new age Babe Ruth?

I've had many public ups and downs 

Overall I've lived a storied life

Looking back on my life so far

I see my life expectations from afar

Am I my family's Nomar Garciaparra?

A career of small hits

a collection of meaningless one off singles

I'm struggling to figure out

Where do I belong in society?

The next woman better check the boxes 

I have a detailed checklist

Leading to being more selective

Pay attention, use her body language 

as clues 

I've been taken for everything then cut loose

Look at my scars, clearly you see I've paid my dues

Equally as clear I'm a great catch and release

A life of fishin' on a mission to hook a winner to take home for dinner

A life of taking what I can get 

a guy with a damaged heart 

and broken mind 

accepts whatever he can find

Relationships have a business aspect 

can a guy's whose barren 

earn respect that's truly genuine

If she's the bread winner, in the financial class above 

Towards her man, is she capable of genuine love?

I'm struggling to figure out

Where do I belong in society?

make her laugh, make her feel important,

Kiss her softly, show her she's loved, watch her eyes smile

isn't that emotional skill set good enough?

I'm struggling to figure out

where do I belong in society

Too many times I've put her first

even during my own challenging times

I'm guilty of always placing myself aside 

I've had several battles, unimaginably tough

challenging both mentally and emotionally

I need to put myself first before I end up in a hurst

I've learned this about women, men should

Study her, learn then speak her unique language

allow her to lead the conversation 

help her work through her anguish

Trust in your gut without hesitation

Go with the flow, make her laugh

People are communicating even when we're not communicating

People don't realize I understand

messages are sent without a single word said

Please bare with me as

I'm struggling to figure out

Where do I belong in society?