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LETTER ABOUT A MISTAKE
I aptly titled this because you know how you do something and you probably know that you shouldn’t do it, but you don’t realize it until after you do it. Well… tonight in helping my friend Ron, out I went by one of my exes houses. It was not to do anything, in fact all I did was sit in my truck with the lights on with my hazards blinking while he went up to her door and asked her about mowing his lawn which she had told him she would do since she needed extra money. The reason why I said that I may have screwed the pooch is because my ex Stacy is one of those people who on a whim plays the victim. Everyone is out to get her. Everyone is wrong but her. No one understands what she is going through. In fact to be totally honest when they first diagnosed me Bipolar I cried because my only examples of person that were Bipolar were her and another woman I lived with that was angry all the time and yelling screaming, all about everyone else was wrong except them. I have lived with so many people like that. I admit I am not perfect, but I also know or would be an easy wager to make that within the next little bit she’ll act out and have the police at my house even though I didn’t bother her. I was with her for quite a while. She’s the type that cries victim although she is anything but. I moved away from my home town, changed jobs, changed relationships, even went as far as changing churches and only as recent as April did I move back to my home, two years after the fact and I’m just frustrated at best. Of course I’m probably paranoid also, you see last night on our caller id I noticed a call came in from one of Stacy’s friend’s numbers. It wouldn’t be a big deal except it was a friend that I didn’t deal with, and I haven’t seen that number in years. No one in my family knew about the number except me. None of my family deals with Stacy, in fact my mother quit volunteering at Heartland Share so that it would not be said that she was in the middle of stuff. It doesn’t help that there are other numbers on our caller id that come up unknown. I try to run them through reverse directory, but to no avail, so I ended up calling them and they are from her church. Since I’ve moved back home there have been a lot of calls that come in blocked and then no one says anything to the machine or voicemail, and if you pick it up they just hang up quickly. I just am kind of at my wits end and not really comfortable with any of these “coincidences”. My new gf lives 18 hours away and I would never ask her to come to my quote rescue because it is my situation and I’ve always said that I could handle it. My current gf is the type, you get two chances to straighten it out, if there is a third time for you to have to deal with the inappropriateness then she’s busting heads. Did I mention that my new gf is a Sheriff’s officer? I really don’t know what to do but hopefully I won’t have a breakdown again like before.
