A girl I met a match in heaven,
More dark as me could be no better than my old lucky number seven.
Our lives started so grand the faults so small,
Being without each other just makes my skin crawl.
The people came against us one by one,
As every year that past we became that much strong.
Almost seven years now under our belt,
When she is not drinking she makes my heart melt
To wake every morning her face I first see.
The feelings in my heart larger than the sea.
To realize after time I have choices make,
These choices so hard that will certainly control our fate
Written by, Rob Casteel
Need you to satiate the insecurities
cast them away
for a day
of emotional purity
when I need self-obscurity
forget the cards I was dealt
I need that sparkly clear persuasion to hide me from myself...
wake up and get a hold of that sparkly clear persuasion
on my way to school...need incentive for misbehaving...
have a couple of projects...a couple of teachers strictly grading
all I need to forget...is some sparkly clear persuasion...
can't live without you...i'm most alive when you're running
hot through my veins
all my facades are torn away...
all the walls
atop my personality
are torn down....and what's left is the raw, naked me
naked but happily so...
like my descendants centuries
for one beautiful night....life is nothing but a dream...
loving everyone..and everyone loving me...
i need that sparkly clear persuasion...to do it's tasty magic..
in order for me
to be the epitome
of love and compassion
it's a very sad display
of insincerity that's been hammered into my mind and deeply ingrained...
in my mental make up.....can't return to my roots...
cause I need that sparkly clear persuasion to remember the truth.
Life has a habit of beating one down
From any highs that it happens to throw your way
It’s indeed like a roller coaster
With highs and lows and
Flip you upside-down
Except in life when the tracks come down
From a peak that makes you feel
Like you’re on top of the world
It throws you into the ground
Makes you pick up the pieces and rebuild
Before the next peak
Which, just like a roller coaster
Is over far too soon
To be properly enjoyed.
I’m not an egotist,
Like the speaker,
In “Song of Myself”,
I’d rather be a transcendentalist.
I’d like to be taught,
By Mother Nature,
Since this is the best way,
To nurture each thought.
But when it comes to your love,
I forget the words above!
I will not say,
The day is not far away,
When I will reach the moon,
With you soon.
I will not say,
I will give my life away,
For you only,
Since it will be sheer idiocy.
I will not say I will bring the stars for you,
Since absolutely unfeasible it is to do.
He took away something I could never get back
The innocence of a child now self esteem is what I lack
I was only 7 or 8 how was I supposed to know?
I never knew someone could do something so low
Thinking back on it now I wondered why did I let him touch me
Was "no" and kicking not enough to get him off me?
I told him "no," mom I told him "no" like you always taught me
Why didn't he stop mom? I said "NO!" Why couldn't he let me be?
To him I was just a stumpy still tree
He took away something deep
My mind, some nights I couldn't sleep
But I'm stronger now and more confident in myself
I won't let this guy take my stress or my health
I've never told anyone this and I probably never will
Part of me feels guilty, maybe if I had it would of stopped the chills
But now I'm 21 and I'm starting to see
That NOT everything was taken away from me
I REFUSE to let this man take anymore from me
The innocence of a child is ALL it will ever be.
I am still a Virgin, something I hold on to with all my heart
I plan to be, till the day I walk down the isle with my future sweetheart
People wonder why I don't like being touched?
They call me prude and judge but I don't nudge
The simplest thing, like holding hands I couldn't even do
And that's all yes, yes because of YOU!
No one knows or truly understands
Why I would never take anyone hand in hand
People say I come off strong and confident, in my head I say "if you only knew"
That it was all a facade behind something SO TRUE
But now I can finally say that this facade has turned to truth
I'm starting to leave everything that happened in my youth.
Someone once told me, "never regret, if it's good, it's wonderful, if it's bad, it's an experience."
So I'm taking that as a bet
I'm starting to face my past without regret
Because if it didn't happen I wouldn't have worked up the courage to be up here
Speaking with words that are so sincere.
Richard Bach once said "what the caterpillar calls the end of the world the master calls a butterfly"
My translation is that I'm transitioning to a new beginning and moving on from the past
Its not the end but a new beginning at last
I like to end things on a good note
So here is one of my favorite quotes
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.
Girls say they are looking for the right man, but they look right through me.
They say there want someone with similar interests, but they never want to get to know me.
So many have come and gone, and they don't know that by pushing me aside, they have taken a part of me.
They take one look at me.
They see someone who enjoys and plays sports, but they immediately think typical jock.
They see someone who majors in a word they can't understand and they immediately think nerd.
But if they would have sat down and talked with me, they would know the truth.
That, yes, I've played sports, but I'm a little shy.
And don't have tons of friends, I'm a close friend kind of guy.
Baseball and football are how I pass my time.
Heck, I rarely write poems and make them try to rhyme.
I've only been horseback riding once, but I would go again, I'll even go again for a date.
I feel uncomfortable at big parties, but with close friends, I will stay up late.
I spend some time playing video games.
But that's just because I love competition.
That last line didn't rhyme. Oh well. It's my poem. I can do what I want.
They don't know that I will give them everything I can.
I'll be their man.
Who holds them tight. Every night.
But I know we'll argue, and once and a while fight.
But after it's said and done. I will continue to treat you like the princess you are.
It's funny how people always say "don't judge a girl by what's on the outside, but what in the inside."
But to be completely honest with you. Both sexes do the same thing.
We see someone who isn't drop dead gorgeous and we automatically dismiss them.
How do you know he doesn't like the same music, food, movies, sports, art, or interests?
You don't. But guess what. He loves everything you do.
And because he wasn't what your physical appearance of Prince Charming, you may have just passed up a better soulmate than the one you end up with.
I sit here at night, and I think of a girl.
A girl who I've spilled my heart and soul out to.
A girl who I believe is perfect for me and I believe I am for her.
She's currently searching for "the one"
I know her interests, but she doesn't know mine.
Cause she sees that I'm not the kind of guy every girl flocks to.
I don't want to get into specifics so I'll keep the message more general.
So when people talk about how guys don't treat girl by their feelings instead of their looks.
Girls, you do the same thing.
Think about the friend you have who always says "Hi, how are you doing today."
And instead of just saying "Hi" and killing the convo.
Why don't you ask him how his day is going.
Maybe one day your lives will be doing the same thing.