Sweeping the streets,
While blaming defeat-
On the sidewalk.
Taming my feet-
Things can only look up,
As you trickle to the-
Labeled as such,
You puffed up-
Fixed my cuff.
All of us.
Grasping what's left-
Hasn't met an end-
Left to stand once more.
Mother, why you'd fuss?
Our rooms are cleaned at once.
Small fingerprints fade in time.
One, two, three-
Your kisses we'll keep.
Our ashes may seem-
Like sandy gold,
Smells of brimstone.
The lost of two leos and a capricorn.
Our corduroy vests,
Her pink satin dress-
Stained with crimson,
Not to mention shards of glass.
These will soon flush,
As we thrust through misty clouds.
We leave as we come-
Just candes in the sun.
Tried to warn you but you wouldnt listen
chastise your smile & wicked disposition.
you can ask the questions but you know the reason why
cover your tracks in the ashen lie
bite your tongue or he'll give you more
followed the path to the devils door.
sing the songs that angels cry
leave you alone, cold as you die.
withering rot as you curse my name
it doesnt matter its all the same.
bat your lashes, toss your hair
throw your hands up in the air.
Round and round the cycle goes
freezing ice and freezing froze
In the ground they'll lay you down
blithering bluber as you drown.
And so the story comes to a end
make peace with the demons as you transcend.
Sitting in her office. Looking at the child who never ages. The digital photo, blurry, without definition. never to change.
The only hope the stock photography of beaches, a shell, a butterfly, a burger coupon
her carpet worn with weight. with sadness, with the un ending pain of losing the child of her child.
ended life. the name stops. the poverty continues. endless pain. endless loss. never again to see the one thing she had lived for. the one happy point of her day. the smile. the light. the future.
now is ended. now has faded into pixilated memories.
and he will leave me alone tonight
Again within my darkness, my question and fright
and again, again my emotions are denied
And again I pretend to be okay, when a heart is fried
I'd like to know just one thing
Will there ever be an answer to bring?
Night by night, without a knock on my door
Tears so frozen, still thoughts bringing me so sore
I embrace my shadows and what I have been ripped from
I try to look up to the sky, and yet there's still no sight of a visible sun
Your lies cloud the beauty from what I could see
Your lies take away from what I thought could be
and it's all so obvious, yet my boredom chooses to hold me up so
To the still of chained emotions, trying to grasp the shadows made of woe
and again, I still do not know why
When my only entertainment is looking forward to another lie..
With your words draped in sweet clever disguises
Lead me only to questions and silent demises
You again speak of love so freely
But I can tell by your eyes you don't hold it dearly
and I'll wait intently again for more words to keep me company
So I can cling to something, someone, but instead I look forward to agony
It's something I don't quite understand
but it's the closest I have to someone else's hand
and he will leave me alone for another night
Still without another explanation, I cling to an empty sight
I am a shadow, long gone
I am forgotten, disappointments spawn
I am the weeping, in nights silent hour
From society, who savors the sour
I am the dark, stuck within my fears
I am denied, to them and all who hears
I was a dreamer, now hiding within my sleep
From the all of the promises that I can not keep
I am a shadow, long gone
I loved, and I loved you well.
Even after you challenge me hell
I remember, she parted us, you and I
She kissed your cracks, promising you lies
She left you broken, by the dead
But me, I wanted you by my side, to cherish instead
I found a girl, and saw her perspective
Silent, yet surprisingly reflective
They claimed she was away, entirely defective
But I knew otherwise just from the look in her eyes
I saw through the silent, and closed off disguise
And from there, I saw the immediate connection
Completely dissected, but still searches for true affection
Her warm, yet crooked emotion
A calmed, yet broken devotion
Silent, but struggling for her sound
and yet, still not a face found
Her skin torn, gone and rotten.
Her mouth stolen, words lost, ignored and forgotten.
She was exposed to all of the morbid things
Corrupted lies, and uneven broken wings
All she wanted to know if happiness was true
This is what I saw, this was the girl I knew
And she left sudden, without a word,
Her existence she seen was too blurred
Before I could realize, she was gone and done
Did you ever wonder what life can become?
All she wanted to know if happiness was true
This is what I saw, this was the girl I knew..
A timeless ocean.
Trapped of despair, trapped without relief
Enter the moon!
Endless racing of the thoughts.
Including you alone, trapped dead inside an empty room
The dead is holding you stiff once more!
Staring into your eyes, never have you felt so gone before
The time comes again, to pit against all that is you
Will you ever find the part of you that is actually true?
Paint the sky bleak
Consider everything we cannot speak
The one painting with the sun I painted as a child is lost.
Reality has broken the barrier, this is the ultimate cost
I feel like every single thing is like a mind game, played and laid out for me
I can't feel a single thing, like I'm not blind, but I still can't see
What is it really? Perhaps it's not that important?
Tell me what it is, or is it just my own comportment?
I have walked in the very things I've looked down upon
What I once thought was selfish, now I too am wrong
and now there is blood all over my hand
But I have no idea why, I just don't understand
This is a complication called the human mind
Irony, double standards, hypocrisy, A place to be so blind
To wallow and loop in this thick puddle of shame
For the mistakes commited, I fairly wore the blame
Knowing is the beginning is something I suppose
It's better to learn, rather than to find it to oppose.
So I guess I'll take my feelings and throw them to the floor
I'll leave you where you originally were, trapped inside a closed door
And you can echo your goodbyes
as you embrace yourself to the ink of sheer ignorance and sighs..
Tell me, is it ever really "Okay?"
At times I wish I could disappear, away from the day.
Tell me, was it really all a mystery?
Or was I really something plagued by history?
Judge me, try to reason my scars,
Yet, were you there for my unreasonable wars?
Did you ever set foot in my shoes?
Taken account of what brings the blues?
Tell me, does it really matter?
If I was any more the sadder?
Perhaps it's just my business, only my trouble.
Not another place to intrude into my bubble.
I'll solve my self alone, and myself alone only
Not for you to break my silence, maybe tonight, I'd just like to be lonely.
Blame my shortcomings for my scars if you dare.
For me, it just occurred, the past isn't something I ever chose to wear.