sadness

No Christmas in December~

Wounds are healed with time, 

yet this time my wound is too 

painful too heal; death came 

too claim my father's soul~

 

Now sadness, confused tears,

and laments are heard 

throughout my home; this year

and those too follow there will

be no Christmas in December~

 

No present, gift, nor condolence

will bring my father back too life;

God selfishly took him away....

no holy night, far from silent; 

mother's cry awaken my 

slumber~

 

Burning the pain into the night 

does not contemplate the 

feelings within; a dirty glass 

brings stale memories....after 

taste of death on my lips~

 

The night before you will find 

me on one, maybe two binges 

of a chemical romance,  by the 

seventh binge I will be satisfied 

if my eyelids find rest~

 

Unhappy holidays without

decorative lights and a pine tree 

to display....while most will be 

merry, I will bury my father; for

you see there is no Christmas in 

December anymore~   

 

R.I.P {DAD} 

08/19/1950- 12/11/2014

 

Soulkritic° copyright 2014

Author's Notes/Comments: 

R.I.P DAD!!!

A Sad Deer

He stands there,


Alone,


Dejected,


A deer.


 

Being thirsty,


Went it near the river,


All on a sudden,


A crocodile attacked him brutally.

 


It was fortunate enough to have lost one leg,


But, death is what now he does beg.

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Emotional Hearts Crying Together

 

Precious Baby Girl
Why Are You Crying All By Yourself
It Tears Up My Eyes And My Heart
To See Beautiful Lady Breaking Down
I Can't Stand To See A Beauty With A Frown

 

Here I Come I'll Say
But I Won't Just Watch
And See You Cry
Let Me Brush Those Tears
Because I Don't Like To See
Someone Hurting Inside
Sitting All By Themselves

 

I Don't Want To Leave You Alone
But Let Me Sit By Your Side
Let Me Be Near You
I Don't Know What Made You Cry
I Don't Know Why You're Sad
I Don't Know What's Going Through Your Mind
But I Want You To Know
That I Love You

 

I Don't Care What The Others Might Say
They Might Say I'm Just Some Random Creepy Guy
Others Might Say I'm Stalking You
Some Might Say I'm Just Looking At Your Appearance

 

But Everyone Needs A Little Love
Everyone Needs To Feel Cared For
Everyone Needs A Tight Caring Hug
And Everyone Needs A Shoulder To Cry On

 

Maybe You're Alone
In The Corner Of An Empty House
Or Maybe You're The One
No One Notices In The Crowd
Maybe You're The One With Parents
Who Abuse, Hurt And Don't Really Care About You
Maybe You're The One
Who Keeps All Their Emotions Inside
No One Suspects Any Sense Of Sadness Or Anger

 

But Let Me Tell You One Thing
I'm One Of Those Emotional Man
Who No One Suspects
Who Lacks Major Affection In His Life
No One Suspects That Joyful Silly Joke
That He Desperately Needs A Hug
Desperately Wants To Feel Loved

 

The One Emotional Man
Who Just Wants To Feel Loved
Trying To Find Someone
Who's Just As Broken As He Is
Someone Who Just Wants To Feel Loved
Someone Who Has Lacked Love In Their Life
I Don't Care What Has Happened In Your Life
I Don't Care Who Has Hurt Or Injured You

 

I Just Want To Be The One
Who Removes Your Troubles
I Just Want To Be The One
Who Heals Your Heart
The One Who Softens All Of The Pain

 

When You Feel Like Letting Go
I Want You To Feel That
Someone Is Holding Onto Your Hand
Someone Who Is Willing To Die For You
Someone Who Is Willing To Stick By Your Side
Someone Who Has Felt The Same Exact Pain

 

Perhaps Not The Exact Experience
But The Hollowness In Your Heart
The Empty Desertedness
You Feel All The Time

 

I Want To Be The One
Who Stops You From Giving Up
The One Who Keeps Your Engine Running
Never Letting You Give Up
Never Letting Go Of Your Hand
But The One Who Stick With You
Through All Of The Ups And Down
The Happiness And Cheerful
The Sorrow And The Sadness

 

I Will Be The One
Who Will Hold Your Hand
Until The End Of Time
Until Everyone Gives Up On You
I May Be A Broken Man
I May Be Someone
Who Is Breaking Down

 

But If There's Someone
Who's Crying Out Inside
Just As I Am Right Now
I Will Give It My All
To Keep You Happy
I Will Give It My All
To Make You Smile
For The Sake Of My Happiness
I Don't Want You To Worry

 

I Would Rather See You
Smile Through Those Tears
Crying Your Heart
From The Inside To Outside
To Understand You Have Someone
Who Really Cares About You
And I Will Hold Onto That Promise
I Won't Let Go
I Won't Give In
I Will Give It My All
All For You My Dear

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

It Was Past 1 AM And I Was Crying Prior To Writing This

Red Blood Scarred Memories

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People

All I Remember Is Empty Promises
How Can I Pretend
That I See Everything Clearly
I Can't Even See It Through My Eyes
I've Reaped All Of The Pain
And Even After Loving You
I Could Never Be The Same
It Was Never About What I Believed
It Was About What You've Already Given Me
When You Look Me Through Your Eyes

 

I Could Never Cry The Same
Can You See My Soul?
Can You Recognize My Heart?
I've Been Caught With The Promises
Lost In The Forgotten Memories
That I Don't Know Of
I Can't Think Of
Because I've Left Them Behind
How Can I Say I'm Thankful
When I Don't Even Remember Any Of It

 

I Could Never Feel All Your Pain
What I've Felt
I Don't Remember
I Try Not To Remember
But Already, I've Forgotten Myself
I Lost Count Of The Tears
I Can't Seem To Remember The Good
Because All I Remember Is
Is Not What Was Meant To Be

 

It Wasn't By Fate
It Was More Wishful Thinking
It Was My Sword Drawn To My Neck
How Can I Recognize The Cure
When I All I See Is My Blood
All Of This Pain Flowing Inside

 

I Can't Remember
I Don't Know
Because I Think I Don't Care
I Don't Want To Not Care
But I Forgot About The Importance Of Love
It Felt Like I've Lost Myself In The River

 

Incinerated I Can't Feel My Skin
I Can't Ignore My Soul
Even Though I'm Far From Pure
Sentimental I Don't Know What I Feel
Because Every Nudge I Stab
It Leaves A Mark
And When I Try To Erase It
It Replaces The Mark
With A Scar
A Scar I Cannot Remove

 

But I Can Tell You
That The Scar You Are Seeing
Is What Made Me Stronger
It's What Reminds Me
Of What I've Experienced
The Pain I've Felt
The Struggles I've Endured
And Even Though I Can't Say
I'm Learning From My Mistakes
I Have Better Insight Of Mistakes
Then I Once Had
Prior To My Scars

Heartfelt Love

Folder: 
Miracles

You Would Not Believe
If I Asked You A Simple Question
You Could Wish For Anything
Everything Of Within Wealth Dreams

 

Beyond Demand Or Desire
Souvenir Or Offer Of Time
That If I Asked You
Would You Rather Have
A Date At The Most Expensive Restaurant
Or A Man That Cooks Your Meal From His Heart
I'll Be Here To Heal Your Pain

 

If I Told You There's Nothing You Could Give Me
That Would Mean More To Me
Than To Spend Time With Someone You Loved
Nothing More Than Being With Someone
Someone Who Calms Your Heart
Someone Who Soothes Your Soul
Someone Who Eases All Of The Pain
Pain That Seemed To Last Forever
Would Last Less Than A Blink

I'll Be Here To Heal Your Heart

 

There Would Be No Gift Beyond Expense
That Would Make Me Any More Happier
Than Just Being With Someone
Someone Who Makes You Happy
Being By Them Warms Your Insides
Snuggling With Them Calms Your Heart
Please Stay Here For While

 

Someone Who Values You More Than A Person
Who Looks Beyond The Appearance Of Beauty
Looking Beyond Your Skin, Hair, Or Body Display
But Loves You From Your Heart Inside Out
Please Stay For The Moment

 

You Can Stay Right Next To Me
You Can Sit Right Next To Me
And Cuddle Right Beside Me
Snuggle Close By My Arms
You Don't Need To Say A Word
I Won't Say A Word Either
Because You're Cute
You're So Adorable
And You're So Beautiful
With Those Sparkling Eyes
Please Stick Around

 

This Moment Feels So Calm
It's So Quiet Here
I Might Have The Thought Of Music
The Thought Of Tuning On Orchestra Music
But Maybe I'll Just Stay Quietly Here
Right Beside You And Keep You Happy Here
Just Stay Here For A While
My Dear Cute Love
Please Stay Here With Me

Breaking Deceptive Glass

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The Second Wind
Comes Against Your Face
Brushes On Your Skin
Why Does It Feel So Bad To Do
But Yet I Feel So Good
Bring Pain Into My Heart

 

I Used To Think It Was Forever
I Thought It Would Last A Life Time
But Sometimes You Just Don't Know The End
Sometimes You Just Don't The Story
And Sometimes You Just Don't Their Reason

 

It Feels Like So Much Resentfulness
So Much Hidden Cognitive Energy
Why Do You Feel The Need To Bring It
Why Does The Subconscious Feel So Real

 

The Day I Told You
It Would Never Come To An End
But Here Lies Your Old Promise
It Just Falls Apart

There's No Pieces To Pick Up
And I Know It Wasn't Intentional
I Know It Wasn't Intended
But Yet I Feel Forced To Feel Indifferent
Yet I Feel Misguided And Wrong
Unbearable And Unforgiving

 

Will The Rain Fall Faster Than Your Tears
You Lost Me At It Was Meant To Be
You Lost Me With Your Given Thoughts
Why Do You Bring It To Existence
Why Do You Bring It Up
Just To Waste It Away Again
This Isn't A Time For Reason
This Isn't Just For The Moment
But You Bring It To The Ground
You Brought It To An End

Into The Red Zone

Here....I Am Falling Fast
I Am Covered With Your Hate
I Am Covered With Your Blame
Why Can't You See The Blood
Why Can't You See The Pain

 

Do You Hear Me Now
Do You See Me Now
Do You See This Gaping Wound
Can You See I Can't Escape This Pain
I Can't Undo What I've Done
Can't You See Me Now

But Can You Hear Me Now

 

Can't You See Me Bleeding
Can't You See This Healing
I Am Covered In  Blood
I Am Covered With Pain
When It Goes Through
Inside And Out
You Lose You Head

 

AND HOW
Much Does It Hurt?
BUT WHY
Does It Hurt That Much?
AND YES
It May Numb You
BUT YOU CAN"T
Give Up The Fight

 

But If You Wanna Fight
You Don"t Want To Start With Me
If You Wanna Fight
You Don't Want To Test Me

The Fool

What do I do when 

Everything is not enough?

 

What do I do when 

I give all, and it is rejected?

 

What do I do when the love

That was meant for us two to share

Is cheapened by another?

 

Love is not cast away,

And suffering is sure to stay

And so alone I cry and moan 

And tell the world 'leave me alone!'

And accept what I never can condone.

 

And I wait for when 

She wants love, not lust,

And comes back to me.

 

I wait for when everything is enough.

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Totally Unreal

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People

Everything I Leave In a Line
Everything I Say, You Think It's a Lie
We Are The Ones That You Hate
We Are The Ones That You Blame
We Are The Ones That You Despise
We Are The Ones That You Shun

 

You Can Accuse Me Of Individuality
Strip Me Of My Dignity
Blame Me Of My Originality
Hate Me Of My Sentimentality
Extract Me Of Reality
Rip Me Of My Liberty

 

My Conviction Is Beyond Unreal
Never Hide Yourself
Never Compromise
Never Lower Your Value

What You Tell Me
What You're Saying
Everything You Say I Am
Up Until The End
It's All About What I'm Not