sadness

If You Need Love

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People

If You Need To Feel Loved
If You Need A Hug
I'm Here For You
Because I Care About You
And If You Fall Down
I'll Be There To Lift You Up
I'll Be That One
Who Will Prevent You
From Falling
To The Same Problems Twice
Because I'll Be That One
Who Wipes Yours Tears Away
Before The Flood Comes Pouring In
Before The Tsunami Comes Crashing In
And All I Need From You
Is For You To Trust Me
That I'll Be There For You
Because If I Make A Promise
I Intended To Keep It


I See The Scars You Try To Hide
And I See The Blood
That's Leaking Out
And I Want You To Know
That I Don't Care What Caused It
I Want To Be The One
Who Stops The Bleeding
The One Who Heals
That Fragile Broken Heart
Beating Inside
And Bent Out Of Shape
I Don't Care What Shape Its In
Because I'll Love Your Heart
In Whatever Way I Need To


If You Need Me To Hold You
I'm Right Here To Hold You
And If You Need
Warm Hugs And Kisses
I'm Willing To Give You
Warm Caring Hugs And Kisses
When Ever You Need Them
Where Ever You Feel Lost
I'll Be There
To Let You Know
You're Not Alone
And That You're Right
Where You Need To Be


Because All I Want
For You To Know
Is That I'll Be There For You
I'll Be That One Person You Need
That One Person Who Makes You
Look Forward To This Upcoming Day
And See That Beating Heart
Is Making A Smile Outwards


I'll Be That One
When You Have No One Else
I'll Be The Guy
When All Other Guys
Make You Cry
All The Others
Make You Tear Up
I'll Be The One
Who Makes You Cry
Out Of Happiness
The Ones Who Makes You Smile
The One Who Brightens Your Heart
And Makes All Of The Pain
Feel Lessened Out And Of No More


All I Desire
Is For You To Be Happy
And If I Have To Break
For You To Be Happy
I'm Willing To Give It All
I'm Willing
For You
Just To Smile
I Don't Want
To See You Crying
And I Don't Want You Hurting
So I'm Giving You My Hugs
My Heart
And My Unconditional Love
So You Never Have To Feel Alone
You Never Need To Feel Uncared For
Because I Am With You
I Am Right Here For You
I'm Here To Heal You

Broken Heart Revealing

 

 


If Only I Had Trusted You
If Only I Had Called To You First
Would This Have Happened To Me
Would This Have Changed Anything
Or Would I Still Be Looking At This Chapter


Tell Me Where You Want Me
Tell Me Where Should I Go
Because If We Only
We Could Get Rid
Of All This Pain Inside
If Only We Could
Let Go Of The Past
And Could Just
Face The Truth In Ourselves
If We Only
We Could Get Over
The Tears We've Cried
Maybe We Could Move On
And Turn Over The Stone


Pretending I'm Stronger
Than Who I Really Am
But Who Am I To Blame
Who Am I Tricking
To Thinking I'm Someone
Who I'm Really Not
And I Remember
What I Told Myself
Be Yourself
Because You Don't
Need To Pretend Anymore
You Don't Need
To Pretend At All


I Threw All
Of My Past Away
And I've Forgotten That
Kept My Heart Beating
I've Forgotten The Pain
I've Triumphed Over
I'm Feeling So Far Away
Because Everything I've Faced
Everything I've Experienced
Why Do I Make Myself Forget The Past
When I Know There's Lessons
I've Learned
And Pain I've Fought


I Can't Take It Anymore
Please Don't Forget My Dear
I've Told You To Not Forget
What I've Have Learned
I've Said I Won't Forget
What I've Have Experienced
I've Made Clear
That I Won't Leave It Behind
I Won't Leave My Heart
Beating Broken In The Dust
Because You Need To Feel It Broken
In Order For You
To Feel It Wholesome And Alive
Beating Well And Kicking It Real

 

 

Reclaimed Hope

The Fear Now
Is That I'm Letting Go
The Fear Now
Is That I Don't Know
What I Am I
Running Away From
Seems Like I See
What I Don't Want To See

 

It Feels Like
I'm Not Striving
For What I Want To Be
Why Can't I Be
All That I Want To Believe
What I'm Striving For
And What I'm Fighting For
I Don't Think It's The Same
But Can I Believe Otherwise

 

I See The Fire That Resides Inside
But I'm Growing Slowly
And I'm Losing Faith Slowly
Will It Rush Faster
And Will It Quicken Later
Because I'm Slowly Losing My Patience
I Know I've Said I Wouldn't Let Go
I Know I've Said I Wouldn't Give In
But Hope Is Slipping Away
And I'm Sluggish To React Back

 

I'm Slow To React
And I'm Begging You
Please Hold Me Now
If Only We Could See
The Things We Hold In
If Only We Could Get Over
Our Own Sorrows
If We Only Could
Triumph Our Past
To All I've Ever Known
If We Could See
Beyond Our Own Eyes

 

But I'm Resistant To Give Up
This Night Has Just Begun
And I'm Glad
To Say That This
Is The Moment
That We Come Alive
Because Less Than A Second
We Were Made In His Image
We Were Born To Become Great

 

So Thats Why
I'm Going To Tell You
When The Hard Times Come
There's A Reason
And When You Can't See That Reason
Then You Know
You Need To Be Growing
And When You Still Dont Understand
You Know There's A Plan
A Plan You Can't See
A Plan You Couldn't
Have Made Up By Your Own
To Trust In The Lord
And Have Patience With Him
Because Your Time Isn't Up Yet
Your Chess Piece Hasn't Been Moved Yet
So Trust In Him
And Have Patience
Because It's Not Over Yet

Too Much And Not Enough

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Miracles

You Tell Me You Want Peace
And I Tell You I Want Serenity
You Say You're Too Dark Inside
And I Say I'm Too Light Inside
You Say You're Too Insecure
And I Say I'm Too Shy

 

You Say You're Not Beautiful Enough
And That Nobody Wants Your Insecure Heart
I'll Say That You're Perfect The Way You Are
And That I'll Accept Your Heart The Way It Is

 

You Say You're Locked Inside A World Of Darkness
That Everything You Touch
Disintegrates And Crumbles To Remains
And There's Nothing To Look Forward In Life
You Say There's Too Much Of Hate And Bitterness
No One Would Ever Have The Time Or Patience
To Show You The Love Or Peace
Tolerating The Bitterness And Grudge
You Hold Within Yourself

 

But I'll Give You My World And Show You
That I Have Nothing In My World
Nothing But Too Much Light Holding Up Inside
No Where To Expose Its Shining Brilliance
But Peace And Love Where No One Else
Can Experience It, See It, Hear It, Or Feel Its Light
No One Steps In And Feels Hate
No One Steps In And Feels Bitterness

 

But Please Excuse My Mind
Because I'm Not Thinking Clearly
I Don't Want To Smother You With Indifference
I Just Want To Show You That There's A Way
There's A Way Out Of That Darkness
And That You Will Be Accepted
Just The Way You Are

 

There's No Need To Change Your Attitude
No Need To Change Your Choice Of Words
You Don't Have To Change What You Wear
Just Come As You Are
And I Will Accept You
I Will Accept Your Heart
Just The Way It Is

 

I Will Accept You
As A Whole Person
Not Some Monster Of This World
Not Some Creature In The Darkness
But A Insecure Lost Soul
Thirsting And Yearning
For Affectionate Love

Weigh The Gain

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People


Let Me Be Set Free
Of A Broken Heart
Let Me Feel This Breeze
Lightly Smoothed On Your Skin


Instead Of Having Of These Mirrors
I Wish You Could Look
At All Of Your Successes
Instead Of Looking
At All Of Your Faults And Insecurities
If We Could Switch Our Perspective
Maybe Just This One Time


Sometimes I Just Want To Hope
Sometimes I Just Want
It To Be Left Just The Way It Is
But I Don't Know If Its The Way
If Its Meant To Be
If Its Suppose To Be This Way
Or Maybe I'm Just Trying To Be Right
A Means Of Being Right
Feels Wrong At So Many Levels


Trying To Prove What Isn't Specific
What's So Not Precise Or Exact
I'm Not Trying To Make You Perfect
I'm Just Trying To Give You A Future
A Pure Sense Of Justice
To Give You Hope For Freedom

No Christmas in December~

Wounds are healed with time, 

yet this time my wound is too 

painful too heal; death came 

too claim my father's soul~

 

Now sadness, confused tears,

and laments are heard 

throughout my home; this year

and those too follow there will

be no Christmas in December~

 

No present, gift, nor condolence

will bring my father back too life;

God selfishly took him away....

no holy night, far from silent; 

mother's cry awaken my 

slumber~

 

Burning the pain into the night 

does not contemplate the 

feelings within; a dirty glass 

brings stale memories....after 

taste of death on my lips~

 

The night before you will find 

me on one, maybe two binges 

of a chemical romance,  by the 

seventh binge I will be satisfied 

if my eyelids find rest~

 

Unhappy holidays without

decorative lights and a pine tree 

to display....while most will be 

merry, I will bury my father; for

you see there is no Christmas in 

December anymore~   

 

R.I.P {DAD} 

08/19/1950- 12/11/2014

 

Soulkritic° copyright 2014

Author's Notes/Comments: 

R.I.P DAD!!!

A Sad Deer

He stands there,


Alone,


Dejected,


A deer.


 

Being thirsty,


Went it near the river,


All on a sudden,


A crocodile attacked him brutally.

 


It was fortunate enough to have lost one leg,


But, death is what now he does beg.

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Emotional Hearts Crying Together

 

Precious Baby Girl
Why Are You Crying All By Yourself
It Tears Up My Eyes And My Heart
To See Beautiful Lady Breaking Down
I Can't Stand To See A Beauty With A Frown

 

Here I Come I'll Say
But I Won't Just Watch
And See You Cry
Let Me Brush Those Tears
Because I Don't Like To See
Someone Hurting Inside
Sitting All By Themselves

 

I Don't Want To Leave You Alone
But Let Me Sit By Your Side
Let Me Be Near You
I Don't Know What Made You Cry
I Don't Know Why You're Sad
I Don't Know What's Going Through Your Mind
But I Want You To Know
That I Love You

 

I Don't Care What The Others Might Say
They Might Say I'm Just Some Random Creepy Guy
Others Might Say I'm Stalking You
Some Might Say I'm Just Looking At Your Appearance

 

But Everyone Needs A Little Love
Everyone Needs To Feel Cared For
Everyone Needs A Tight Caring Hug
And Everyone Needs A Shoulder To Cry On

 

Maybe You're Alone
In The Corner Of An Empty House
Or Maybe You're The One
No One Notices In The Crowd
Maybe You're The One With Parents
Who Abuse, Hurt And Don't Really Care About You
Maybe You're The One
Who Keeps All Their Emotions Inside
No One Suspects Any Sense Of Sadness Or Anger

 

But Let Me Tell You One Thing
I'm One Of Those Emotional Man
Who No One Suspects
Who Lacks Major Affection In His Life
No One Suspects That Joyful Silly Joke
That He Desperately Needs A Hug
Desperately Wants To Feel Loved

 

The One Emotional Man
Who Just Wants To Feel Loved
Trying To Find Someone
Who's Just As Broken As He Is
Someone Who Just Wants To Feel Loved
Someone Who Has Lacked Love In Their Life
I Don't Care What Has Happened In Your Life
I Don't Care Who Has Hurt Or Injured You

 

I Just Want To Be The One
Who Removes Your Troubles
I Just Want To Be The One
Who Heals Your Heart
The One Who Softens All Of The Pain

 

When You Feel Like Letting Go
I Want You To Feel That
Someone Is Holding Onto Your Hand
Someone Who Is Willing To Die For You
Someone Who Is Willing To Stick By Your Side
Someone Who Has Felt The Same Exact Pain

 

Perhaps Not The Exact Experience
But The Hollowness In Your Heart
The Empty Desertedness
You Feel All The Time

 

I Want To Be The One
Who Stops You From Giving Up
The One Who Keeps Your Engine Running
Never Letting You Give Up
Never Letting Go Of Your Hand
But The One Who Stick With You
Through All Of The Ups And Down
The Happiness And Cheerful
The Sorrow And The Sadness

 

I Will Be The One
Who Will Hold Your Hand
Until The End Of Time
Until Everyone Gives Up On You
I May Be A Broken Man
I May Be Someone
Who Is Breaking Down

 

But If There's Someone
Who's Crying Out Inside
Just As I Am Right Now
I Will Give It My All
To Keep You Happy
I Will Give It My All
To Make You Smile
For The Sake Of My Happiness
I Don't Want You To Worry

 

I Would Rather See You
Smile Through Those Tears
Crying Your Heart
From The Inside To Outside
To Understand You Have Someone
Who Really Cares About You
And I Will Hold Onto That Promise
I Won't Let Go
I Won't Give In
I Will Give It My All
All For You My Dear

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

It Was Past 1 AM And I Was Crying Prior To Writing This

Red Blood Scarred Memories

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People

All I Remember Is Empty Promises
How Can I Pretend
That I See Everything Clearly
I Can't Even See It Through My Eyes
I've Reaped All Of The Pain
And Even After Loving You
I Could Never Be The Same
It Was Never About What I Believed
It Was About What You've Already Given Me
When You Look Me Through Your Eyes

 

I Could Never Cry The Same
Can You See My Soul?
Can You Recognize My Heart?
I've Been Caught With The Promises
Lost In The Forgotten Memories
That I Don't Know Of
I Can't Think Of
Because I've Left Them Behind
How Can I Say I'm Thankful
When I Don't Even Remember Any Of It

 

I Could Never Feel All Your Pain
What I've Felt
I Don't Remember
I Try Not To Remember
But Already, I've Forgotten Myself
I Lost Count Of The Tears
I Can't Seem To Remember The Good
Because All I Remember Is
Is Not What Was Meant To Be

 

It Wasn't By Fate
It Was More Wishful Thinking
It Was My Sword Drawn To My Neck
How Can I Recognize The Cure
When I All I See Is My Blood
All Of This Pain Flowing Inside

 

I Can't Remember
I Don't Know
Because I Think I Don't Care
I Don't Want To Not Care
But I Forgot About The Importance Of Love
It Felt Like I've Lost Myself In The River

 

Incinerated I Can't Feel My Skin
I Can't Ignore My Soul
Even Though I'm Far From Pure
Sentimental I Don't Know What I Feel
Because Every Nudge I Stab
It Leaves A Mark
And When I Try To Erase It
It Replaces The Mark
With A Scar
A Scar I Cannot Remove

 

But I Can Tell You
That The Scar You Are Seeing
Is What Made Me Stronger
It's What Reminds Me
Of What I've Experienced
The Pain I've Felt
The Struggles I've Endured
And Even Though I Can't Say
I'm Learning From My Mistakes
I Have Better Insight Of Mistakes
Then I Once Had
Prior To My Scars