Now, I don’t really care, she is my grown-up girl
Once I was the oyster to protect my baby pearl
That was the time, to her a lullaby I would sing
She would gently fall asleep, beneath my caring wings
And now is the time, my girl is busy, full of aggression
Wrinkles on my eyes desperately seek her attention
Then a day arrived when she said,
‘Mum it’s your birthday, let’s celebrate’
At home I awaited her, for a mother-daughter meet
I cooked chicken for her that day, my darling loves it!
But she dint turn up as promised, my heart sank
I consoled myself, she must be playing pranks
She came home late night, no wishes, no celebration
Just a ‘Good Night’, she had forgotten the occasion
Hush lil heart! She is grown up after all, those emotions won’t stay
Hope she is in safe hands, from the core of my heart I pray!
I want your love for the rest of my life
When the day is through and the week has been nothing but a letdown
I want your love in every word, every action, every unspoken thought
Let it surround and hold on to me, taking away every pain and fear
I want to tell you every thought and every secret
Time is unfriendly and I don’t want to waste the hours
Let me love you endlessly and without regret
Let me linger on your lips
Lay with you, skin on skin in the cool of the night
Fall asleep with your arms around me
Letting it over take my mind with endless dreams
Let me love you for the rest of my life
But when this life is over and we meet once more
Let me love you all over again
You build me up
Stitch the scars
And without warning tear me down
These games get old
How great do you really think you are?
No one here can speak or feel
Silent words fall on deaf ears
You speak the words that all should hear
You forget the words said when in sex induced sweat we embrace
Sometimes i wonder, what keeps you here?
Never really trusted promises made out of lust until you came along
Like you ive been broken and damaged
Yet i pay for someone elses mistakes and live in the shadow of her ghost
I hold you high on a pedestal of gold where only you can make yourself fall
I know I'm going to have to give up one of these days,
But I just really don't want it to be today.
...Should it be today?
The voices in my mind continue to say
Back down, step off, there’s just no way.
And you know what,
I admit it…
I can’t do this anymore.
…I can’t bring myself to give up again!
You should know I gave up fighting long ago,
At the time I had no purpose, I thought it was right,
But it was you that sparked the flame in me,
You made this blind man see,
I now have a reason to fight
So in my mind, I try to align,
The odds that I have, if I have any kind.
And no matter what I find,
I’ll never give up, I’ll never resign.
I’ll come back from behind,
with an elaborate design,
To make my way to your mind,
I won’t stop even if God were to give me a sign.
Why?
Because I keep hope.
It doesn’t matter what I read off a horoscope.
I know I want to be next to you.
…I just wish you knew what I knew.
That my hope lies in your hands,
And I swear it’s strong enough for any of your demands.
Just please don’t tell me my hope’s not enough.
…It’s all I have in a world this tough
-The Lazarus
The first time I kissed a girl
I was ten feet off the ground
Stars swarming around my head
Like fireflies all around
Like little lights in the grass
The magic in the air
How I often after that I wished
That I could go back there
The next time I kissed a girl
Was marred by circumstance
I loved her; she wasn’t sure
She said I never had a chance
But I still hope to this day
To melt her heart of ice
I’ve never met someone who I care for more
And so I sacrifice
But the next time I kiss a girl
Will actually mean something
It will be my truest sign
Of all that I’m giving
That I will be there for her
That she will be my world
And nothing on this earth can stop me
From having her to hold
You don’t know
You just can’t understand
But every time I’m with you
Like footprints in the sand
A new memory created
And that one’s my new favorite
Like this first time we dated
Etched onto my heart
This is it
This is goodbye
And though you say I just can’t add up
I’m not so sure about that
But your saying that may mean
That you’re not good enough for me
Yet, that’s not how I feel
So before you leave
I wish
That you always find God’s grace
That you find what you’re looking for
That your dreams give you wings
That you aim at the stars
That you appreciate compliments
And forget critics
That you live like you’re dying tomorrow
And you always find your way back
I’m still your friend
And I can settle for second place
But only because loving you briefly
Is better than not knowing you at all
Perhaps another time
Another life
We would’ve been happy
But if you can’t find someone better
I’ll still be here
And I wish
That your heart won’t be broken
Past what I can fix
That the fork in the road
Wakes you up to the drive
That you find joy
In the little things in life
And that you always find your way home.