The Love of My Understanding

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I see you, baby

With my eyes closed and my glasses off

 

I see your love, clearly.

 

Transparent...

You see through my facades

You see through the pain and trust issues

Your love defied my odds

 

First aid for my battered soul

A splint for my broken heart

You know just what to say to make me better

As if you have loving me down to an art

 

Our first date you saw my worst 

didn't run didn't curse

You held me tight and sat me down

saying that my my health should come first

 

Your risked it all to be with me 

From warm beds to cold floor

Made it work with what we had 

even when we were piss poor

 

Too hemmed up on what "They" say

Or how I was raised or what should've been planned 

I stopped listening long before you said

"That's just not who I am" 

 

You run from me...

Leaving only traces of  your presence

I feel lowly without my king

Like the most empoverished of peasants

 

Still your heart reaches out to mine

I feel it in your tone...

Even though the words that are coming out are

I just need some time alone

 

Not coming home?!

 

I'm demanding and impartient

maybe a little unwell

I didn't know my happy home

had become your personal hell.

 

While you lit my heart afire and breathed love into my existence 

I killed your spirit speaking darkness unto you

making you feel like a misfit.

 

Enamoured with the thought of perfection

not realizing the truth

In trying to be the perfect adult,

I was stealing both of our youth

 

I bitched up

You were too close to the truth

That as much as you needed me 

it wasn't even close to how much I needed you

 

Sometimes I need to hear you say it

I need to know you're there

I need to feel your arms around me 

Yes, Darling... I'm scared. 

 

Can I get another man, Indeed I'm never left stranded

But he won't be you... La Luz 

The Light

The Love of my Understanding