Author Information
Penance
Folder:
Confessions I tried to change
I tried to gain your approval
Tried to bring back the smile you had when we first met
and the fire that kept us alive for hours in dark heavens
I tried to turn back time and find my purity
Bowed down and prayed to the Divine
Burned my Nietzsche books
and turned to your Ignatian rules
Climbed the thousand steps of El Salvador
on my knees
Lit two candles in San Pedro Church
and prayed
Abstained myself from Rand and Marx
Silenced the waves of the seas
inside my soul,
the loud beating of my dying heart,
the whispers of the cold wind
Dressed black on Friday nights
Slapped my cheeks with verses
of my sins
Recited the rites of holiness
to conjure your love
Dried up my eyes from hellish cries...
I swallowed you
Your blood, flesh, and tears
Like a sacrament, I welcomed it all —
even the dark clouds that moved
around you
Didn't I hear the heavens and saw
the angels in you?
Still, my demons are here to stay and say,
Why am I still not enough for you?
How can be enough for you?
Giving Up Rand
was extreme - We The Living - rocks. So romantic as literature. I gave it to my son in law and he read it, put it on the mantel and said, "We are going to keep this!" It was a good book. The rest are okay if you skip the long pedasal preachy parts on capitalism. The woman made you give up Rand. wow. You burned books. Wow! she musta been something, sorry she left. - slc